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August 22nd, 2009
10:06 pm
i miss marching band already.
as each day of summer melts into the next, i am realizing more and more that my time at EMU is dwindling. i got a letter in the mail today about a student teacher meeting...i didn't even read it all the way through.
k michael called. life is odd.
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June 3rd, 2009
08:13 pm
i don't have a plan and i'm okay w/that.
no one else is, though.
life is too rocky and unpredictable. i'm going to let reality be reality and everyone can just chill out.
i'll get a job somewhere and get married one day and maybe pop out a few kids. but i'm still a kid myself and i don't know what's happening tomorrow.
i'm annoyed.
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May 29th, 2009
12:47 pm
my house is about to explode.
as well as my stomach.
i still need a haircut. i still need to practice. i still need to figure out how to do math. but i wore my frienship bracelets today.
it is what is is.
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May 25th, 2009
09:56 pm - better put 'em in quotations
well sam, i was going to do your ten minute free write, but i'm too scared. i'm afraid of what my fingers might type out.
it is very much summer these past couple of days. i have aquired my first layer of sunburn whilst having a yard sale. i drive with the windows down and get stuck at every red light. corn on the cob. palm almer. too much coffee, not enough flute playing. day camp planning. procrastinating and sleeping too little. i miss ypsilanti. i miss playing duets.
i need to make some changes, but i don't think i want to. i don't want anything to be different. i miss it already and it's not even gone yet. i'm afraid that it will become less and less and then one day all i will have left is a tube of chapstick. is that the way it has to be? maybe i'm being selfish. it's easier to pretend everything is okay.
i need to turn in my student teaching application. life needs to slow down.
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May 6th, 2009
10:25 pm
even after, what is it? four years now? my heart sank to my ankles. i still think of you from time to time, too.
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April 23rd, 2009
10:53 am
you know it's going to be a good day when your car has "got balls?" a hamburger bun, and some green tea on the window. mother fuckers, it's on.
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March 29th, 2009
05:20 pm - i've never been a moral man
i am really proud of all my friends. with all these recitals as of late, i feel like a proud mother. everyone has grown so much as people and musicians in the past four years. i think i am starting to have seperation anxiety. but i am going in the water tower tomorrow and my birthday is in 10 days and i am terrible at the bassoon.
sometimes i feel like i'm lying to myself. i didn't go to church today. i also believe that eyes are windows to the soul. i hope we have chinning wars 30 years from now.
i'm going to go call my mom and play at another recital. go green, go white.
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March 17th, 2009
12:33 am
frosties and french fries tomorrow.
parking too close.
candle wax.
late nights early mornings.
sweatpants and slippers.
these are our glory days.
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February 26th, 2009
10:47 pm - therein lies the paradox
dear journal,
today lauren and i judged four bands. we got to sit at the tables with the lamps and we got our own set of scores. i felt like a kid playing dress up. but i acted like it was my business, so people respected it. i really hope i am going to be a good teacher.
my recital is coming up so fast i think i might vomit blood.
i want a trendy haircut.
i am afraid i will lose all my freinds after college.
i miss duscio. and i do not like the color blue. i get that from my mother.
although, i let a cat sit on my lap the other day and i didn't hate it.
and a slurpee is not pop. an ice cube is an ice cube until it melts. am i right?
and it was very good, the 5th day.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/ibrad/smile.gif) full
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November 13th, 2008
07:17 am
i have been attending eastern michigan university for four years, and yesterday i got lost on campus.
....
yup.
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January 25th, 2008
05:07 pm
HUGH STUART USES THE CIRCLE OF FIFTHS.
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December 3rd, 2007
07:24 am
i've either hit the eye of the storm, or i'm completely over it.
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October 26th, 2007
07:23 am
it's not even 7:30 in the morning and my hair is in the process of becoming princessified. who knew cinderalla was a hack of a flute player as well as a pushover?
things i have currently lost:
some orchestra music
my metronome (number 4, i think)
my 30 dollar baton i got a week ago
hours of sleep
motivation
my music history notebook
yeah, i'm about five years old when it comes to keeping track of my stuff...come to the halloween concert tonight. 7PM. pease. kbye.
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September 14th, 2007
03:14 pm
i think i am going to be ok.
i am going to be principle flute in two ensembles and i am going to play well. i am going to be a good conductor, whether it comes naturally or with hard work. i am going to grow as a musician this year. i am going to learn how to teach. this is it. this is where it all starts coming together. i have confidence in myself, and that is a solid start. i know i am in the right field, because there is nowhere else i would rather be. i love my music. there's no stopping me...i'm doing it.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/ibrad/nerd.gif) determined
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August 30th, 2007
09:43 pm
I AM PUMPED FOR EMU MARCHING BAND 2007!
GO TUBA LINE! GO EAGLE STRUT! HYPE IT!!
p.s. i took 6692 steps and the day isn't even over!!
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August 24th, 2007
08:47 pm
mother nature can go to grass.
now john is going back to the desert and i won't see him for another year. not to mention no alex, becca, or bob time. srsly wtf.
i need to pack like i'm getting paid.
i got a candle and a check.
i need to practice like it's 1999.
i almost cried when we dropped hew off at saginaw.
i'm scared to grow up.
and i am sleepy.
always sleepy.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/ibrad/erked.gif) annoyed
Current Music: isn't she lovely?
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August 3rd, 2007
08:42 pm
i'm feeling way too many things to write down. i found transatlanticism, though.
I roll the window down
And then begin to breathe in
The darkest country road
And the strong scent of evergreen
From the passenger seat as you are driving me home.
Then looking upwards
I strain my eyes and try
To tell the difference between shooting stars and satellites
From the passenger seat as you are driving me home.
"do they collide?"
I ask and you smile.
With my feet on the dash
The world doesn't matter.
When you feel embarrassed then i'll be your pride
When you need directions then i'll be the guide
For all time.
For all time.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/ibrad/confused.gif) confused
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July 3rd, 2007
05:23 pm
it is so weird to think that 2 years ago, i thought my life was ending. i cried so much that my face was burned from tears. i remember declaring that i was going to be a single band director, live in an apartment, and marry my music. i didn't sleep and i hardly ate. someone who you thought you were going to grow old with is now a perfect stranger...it's unsettling. are you ok? do you still watch jeopardy? are you happy? have you had your mom's spinach lasagna lately? are you scared to leave?
everything happens for a reason, i believe that. i'm completely happy in my current relationship. i couldn't ask for a better guy. but talk about the strangest feeling--looking at a picture and knowing this is 100% the past. the love, long talks, laughter, fighting, planning, holding hands, tears...mere memories.
i still pray for you now and then. i hope you're doing well.
Current Mood: nostalgic
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June 18th, 2007
10:12 pm - fresh english muffins&bagels
i think i am about to cave and make a facebook account. i miss out on everything because i don't have one. lame but true. what is this cruel world coming to? anyone want to help me or is it self explanatory?
friday was "water fun day" at day camp. i was sitting next to chad drying off from my trip on the slip and slide, the sun shining on my face, and i realized i have the best job ever. no flipping burgers for me. no manual labor or blood/sweat/tears. just nertz, kickball, and field trips. life is good.
fluting is going OK. mrs. burkett is whipping me back into shape at my lessons. i also got a horn from kolar, and i am trying to teach myself how to produce a decent tone. trying is the key word. i even played the piano yesterday. music major mode in the summer...crazy, i know.
so in conclusion, i miss everyone is ypsi. vitamin water is my new favorite beverage. and i can't wait for the new brad paisley cd!!
xo,
jessie g
Current Music: lalala georgia peaches
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June 11th, 2007
11:25 pm
i am dating the 6th backstreet boy.
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